“‘I stopped him,’ she said, staring at the place where the fence used to be. ‘I took and put my babies where they’d be safe.’
The roaring in Paul D’s head did not prevent him from hearing the pat she gave to the last word, and it occurred to him that what she wanted for her children was exactly what was missing from 124: safety. Which was the very first message he got the day he walked through the door. He thought he had made it safe, had gotten rid of the danger; beat the shit out of it; run it off the place and showed it and everybody else the difference between a mule and a plow. And because she had not done it before he got there her own self, he thought it was because she could not do it. That she lived in 124 in helpless, apologetic resignation because she had no choice; that minus husband, sons, mother-in-law, she and her slow-witted daughter had to live there all alone making do… This here Sethe talked about love like any other woman; talked about baby clothes like any other woman, but what she meant could cleave the bone.” (193)
This excerpt from Beloved is a pivotal point in the novel; Sethe tells Paul D she “saved” her children in the most unthinkable way. Paul D, like the rest of the people in the town, struggle to cope with the fact that Sethe actually murdered her child out of love and protection.
Paul D realizes that “safety” is non-existent from 124. In a “man’s world” the men bring about safety and security to the home, so Paul D naturally expects that he is the one to bring the safety into 124. He assumed that Sethe was unable to make 124 safe, not necessarily because she is a woman, but because there were no men or savior-like figures present in her life like “husbands, sons, [and] mother-in-law”. When Paul D had arrived at 124 he was seen as the “savior” for Sethe and Denver, and the realization that this was not true hurt him deeply. Along with dealing with the horror of Sethe killing her own child, Paul D has to cope with the fact that he was not their saving grace.
“But what she meant could cleave the bone,” and it scared Paul D terribly. As a man, Paul D does not have the capacity to understand the “motherly-instinct” that woman can understand, although even the women in the town do not understand Sethe’s decisions. But, as irrational as it was, Sethe’s decision is rationalized in her head. Baby Suggs would have been in a similar position to Sethe, but she did not understand or accept it. While the reader struggles to understand and cope with the fact that Sethe killed her own daughter, that uncertainty is made even worse by the fact that no character in the book can understand such a thing. The beginning of this excerpt is the first time that the reader explicitly hears that Sethe killed and “saved” her daughter, so Paul D’s reaction is the first one the reader is explicitly shown. The reader might think that another woman may understand the kind of love that forces you to kill, but because there is no character that does it makes understanding Sethe's actions so much harder.